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My friend lost her dad
My other friend lost her mum
My girl lost her uncle
I just lost my cuz
Been about a year since my mum lost her mum
I want to help us all, but the words aint enough
I understand the gravity
& gratitude is a must
Got me thinking about myself
& the space I’m taking up
Ive call Kye about his mum, maybe once
I know he calls me if he needs me, but I feel it aint enough
I’m distracted I’m just active in my own world
I’ll miss the call like ‘oh well’
Everybody looking at me like I’m doing so well
But when it comes to the pressure I don’t cope well
Sometimes it feels better when I’m not around
I feel more at home going from hotel to hotel
Stevie keeps on telling me, that I won’t fail
But I asked him, what would happen if I don’t sell
It wouldn’t load well
All I’ve got some rapping on my cv
Im literally no help
& I aint asking for no help
Im just relying on my tickets
Like coke sales
Cant be hanging on a next mans coat tails
You got to go bill up your name for your own self
They keep on asking what im doing
I say I’m trying a ting
Just hoping that something sticks like no nails
I aint got much to show
But I feel like done alot
Maybe I should move on to the next ting
alot of times I feel like I’m being watched
Don’t know if I’m being paranoid or protected
If I feel a change in my energy I exit
They asked for the same energy so I kept
Im fully focused & i’m working on my future
So you’ll never see me worry about no exs

I don’t want to let you down
I don’t want to let you down
Would you notice me if you met me know
I roll up when it gets too much
I don’t want to tell you because I get too proud

At the time I was hurt that they hurt me
But now I’m fully happy that it went in that direction
All of that pain there was part of my story
But it was never big enough for them to ever get a mention
Some could say
Im inconsistent or distant
But trust me, if I said I love you
Then I meant it
It wouldn’t never work
Because only one of us thrived
I was busy looking after you & got neglected
Living in my truth I’m trying to be honest
& if I don’t know about it
I won’t speak on it
At least once a week
I get messages saying that ive saved them
I don’t share it or screenshot it
I just message back saying
‘Im happy it helped you too, I hope you got what you need from it’
& any darkness that you’re facing
I hope that you find your peace one day
& break free from it

I don’t want to let you down
A couple things didn’t get left right
But I’d be broke if you left right now
Am I being guided or lead astray
You could probably say I’ve had better days
I carry feelings that will never go
I don’t want to talk to people that will never changed
Im feeling like i’m on the outside looking in
Look outside for happiness
& other have to look within
Me & my mate are trying to get it
I play it by the book
I hope they never throw the book at him
Sometimes
I lose track of the time
I keep it moving
Think it about it in the back of my mind
Its like everybody wants to try mess me about
I shake it off because
I don’t want to let you down

Would you notice me if you met me now?
I roll up when it gets too much
I don’t want to tell you
Because I get too proud
& I don’t want to let you down
Packed up my bags
& I left the town
I started with a dream & a £100

Would you notice me if you met me now?
I roll up when it gets too much
I don’t want to tell you
Because I get too proud
& I don’t want to let you down
Packed up my bags
& I left the town
I started with a dream & a £100

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from Everything Is Under Control, released February 16, 2024

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Manga Saint Hilare London, UK

The long-standing grime heavy hitter is known amongst his peers as one of the best and most consistent lyricists in the scene. Since Roll Deep ceased recording as a collective, Manga pursued a forward-thinking sound under a newly adopted identity: Manga Saint Hilare. 

Less braggadocios and explicit, more thought provoking and vulnerable - Manga's lyrics carry a powerful message.
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